Falling in love doesn't happen every day

The past 7 years I’ve yearned for someone to want to hold my hand as much as I wanted to hold his. I’ve yearned for someone to want to step out into adventures, with me by their side, as much as I wanted them there. I’ve yearned to walk up and down beaches, go on long walks together, watch sunsets and sunrises together, take long drives together, experience new places and people together. I’ve yearned for someone to want to be there when I woke up as much as wanting me there when they woke up. I’ve yearned for someone to want to hold me as much as I wanted to hold them. I’ve yearned for someone…….

When you appeared in my life I didn’t realize how much you would mean to me in such a short amount of time. I didn’t realize that you were going to appear out of nowhere and mean so much to me, so intensely, so quickly. I didn’t realize that it would feel so good to know that you were there for me, even being over 900 miles away. I didn’t realize that the relationship that we were going to create would calm so many doubts, fears and insecurities within me. I didn’t realize that I would be less interested in the social world and more interested in your communication, wants and desires. I didn’t realize you would mean the world to me in such a short amount of time.

We walked the beaches hand in hand, we took long walks, we took long drives, we experienced new adventures, we met new people, and we went to new places together…. Do you even realize how much of a dream come true you are?? 

We laid there, your arms around me, as you fell asleep and I listened to your breath as your muscles fell asleep and your breathing changed and all that mattered in those moments were you and I. When we woke up, we both knew we wanted the same things for the day and yet we both wanted the world to stop so that we could spend the morning in bed together.

When I think of what we’ve experienced together, the moments I remember most are your smile, your laughter and the feelings I felt as you had your arms around me. The times that we woke up together and the times we fell asleep together. The times that you looked at me with your inviting smile and allowing me to melt in your eyes, are the times that make everything else wash away. You make everything in my world bearable. You’ve created a ‘home’ that I’m able to go that no one has been able to make for me, not one that I’m able to ‘walk’ into with my entire being, yet my soul is able to crawl into and know that no matter what happens from here and out, I’m going to be OK because you’re there….You’re there to help me through no matter what it is that I have to deal with and that I’m going to be OK because you’re going to walk beside me through no matter what issue it is that I need to handle.

 You’re HOME to me Mr. B.

What we have is extremely comforting to me and I’m absolutely positive that I’m falling in love with you and everything you are and all that you are about. You are the man that I’ve waited for and the man I’ve dreamed of. You’re the father that I always wanted to appear in my life to his children. You’re the hero that I always looked for as a little girl. You’re the gentleman that I always wished would appear at my doorstep. You’re the friend that I always looked for in a man. You’re the male figure that keeps a clean house inside and out and that shows what a real man is.

To be able to have you next to me is beyond a dream, it’s a complete fairytale come true.

As I looked over at you this past weekend, on our trip, it was magical to see the man that was sitting next to me. It wasn’t only the fact that you are extremely handsome, a selfless man, a gentleman, a wonderful father, a man that is mature beyond is years, it was that you were there to be with me and that every ounce of wisdom and knowledge that was held in your face was becoming more and more known to myself as someone that I wanted to spend more time with. As I looked over at you, I smiled inside as my heart warmed, knowing that everything about you, I trusted with my entire heart and that who I was looking at was a gift from the gods above. I knew that who I was looking at was someone I only hope will stay by my side forever.

You are not afraid to confront me. You are not afraid to put me in my place and call me on my stuff. You listen to me when I tell you how I feel about something you are doing and I don’t agree. You look for solutions in the areas that concern me and look for ways that I can do things differently as well. You make suggestions to help with situations. You ask for help. You are humble.

As you laid your head on my lap, I didn’t want you to move. I wanted you stay there and to continue to do it over and over and over. As you watched over me at the event and asked how you could help, I never realized what it would be like to have someone there for me to help me, it felt so GREAT to have that support. As we sat with the others, chatting and experiencing new relationships with others together, it was GREAT to have someone to share the joys, smiles and to experience with someone the BEST times known to me. All of these times, are what I’ve yearned for….. my entire life.

You create adventure, laughter, comfort and joy all into such small amounts of time and knowing that each time we are together, it becomes stronger, and my heart yearns for more of all of it with you. To know that everything that has happened up until this moment, to bring us here, has been worth every ounce of pain, sorrow and tear, for without all of those, you’d never have appeared in my life.

There were so many different things that we experienced together the past week, yet the best part of it all was having you there. The rest really didn’t matter, since it was with you. I adored the moments we were able to experience together and the adventures were absolutely unforgettable, yet, none of it would have been a quarter of a memory without you.

If this is the rest of my life, I’ll take it.