Monday, October 13, 2014

He's my missing puzzle piece

He called me multiple times that day, yet it was the one phone call that lasted for a time that seemed like an eternity…..



He asked me why I was up late and what I was doing or thinking and I started to share with him all my dreams and goals. I went into how I was about to lay out my next plan of action, the steps that needed to be taken, the actions that needed to be put into place and the materials that were going to be needed. I shared how I was thinking of completing it all and the time line that I had in front of me. I shared my fears, I shared how I thought the universe had heard me and how I felt that the timing of everything was lining up just the way it was suppose. I shared with him when I made the decisions that I made, the events that followed were a sign that I believe that I had made the right decisions. I shared with him how I was able to make the last decision with his help, for he laid out the choices for me and helped me to see through each of them and what may or may not happen if I took either one.
Then I went into how I thought through how I could help him with his small business and the steps to make it something great. How we could work together to create what he started into something larger. How if we sat down, trouble shooted and brainstormed together, what we could create in time.


I honestly believe: 


“IF the dream was placed there, it’s achievable. You’ll be faced with decisions that will need to be made, yet as you make the ones that steer you towards the dream, the doors will be opened, the people will be placed appropriately and the opportunities will appear. Follow your dreams.” 


Mr. B. has been placed in my journey for more than a love story, he’s also been placed in my journey to help me succeed in the dreams that I’ve longed for since I was a little girl. Not the ones that I applied for society purposes or traditions, but for my soul and my entire being. To help me continue on the direction that I need to continue on to achieve complete success in what I was placed here on this journey to accomplish. He’s part of the missing puzzle and he was placed in my journey for so many other reasons, yet, I believe he arrived when he was meant to. He arrived when I was strong enough to not only continue to love myself, my children but also him all the while following my heart and soul in all that I dream in my life. 

That day, he not only listened, but he asked me questions and threw out ideas. He walked me through different scenarios and helped me to see things in a different light. He was 100% in attendance to the conversation and applied his full attention all that I shared. He didn’t spend that conversation in another activity, he wanted to hear what I wanted to achieve in life, how I wanted to get there and support me 100% to create the impossible.

People appear in our journeys for a reason. We don’t always know why or do we even realize the full
picture until it’s too late. We don’t always tell them how important they are to our journeys, even if it was a painful experience, we always learn from those in our lives. They are placed there for a reason and it’s up to us to stop and thank them for the lessons that we learn. Just don’t wait to long to thank them. I still have some people to thank, for if they’d not have appeared in my life the way that they did, I’d not be who I am today.

Mr. B has made a major impact on my life, to this point. It’s obvious to most and to the universe, he needs recognition. For the impossible isn’t possible without those special angels placed in front of us. Today, he’s an angel that was placed in front of me, hopefully by the angels above and even if he’s gone tomorrow (which if that happens, I’ll break for a lil while, BTW) I’ll be eternally grateful. If he sticks around, I’ll do everything in my power to help him create a successful life as well.

Thank you for calling, Mr. B, but more importantly, thank you for supporting me in all that I do and here’s my message to you saying that I’m extremely grateful you are who you are and even more grateful that you showed up when you did in my journey.

2 days and a wake up until I’m in his arms.


#Missing #puzzlepiece #romance #love #fallinghard #heunderstandsme #helistens #mine


Sunday, October 12, 2014

It's simple. I miss you.


This past weekend I was able to watch a photo shoot and as I watched, it wasn’t the male included that I yearned for as all I wanted was you, I wanted you to hold me like he held her, I wanted you to be there to turn too and show that radiant smile of yours and tell me, it’s OK, I’m here. I wanted to tell you all about what it felt like while we were shooting the pics or to be the one there to help me with all of my items as I changed for the next set. This was the first event following the last one, where you were able to attend with me, it was as if you’d always been there for all my events and I wanted nothing more than for you to be there to experience it with me.

When I turned my phone back on and the first thing that was sent to me was a text from you and all I wanted to do was to stop the car, call you and tell you all about it. My face lit up when I see that you went to FB to see what the pics were coming out like and what the activity was in my world. To be able to come home and sit and share with you my whole day, as you listened so intensively, felt so soothing. It felt as though I was a young girl, all over again, sharing my day with someone who actually wanted to hear.

Then to follow it up, today with another long conversation with you about how my mind operates when it’s going mock 5, with all my ideas and the goals and steps that I have planned out to create a successful future, made my weekend.

You always ask me what the best part of my day was and today my day was complete, for my daughter returned home, my son and I laughed through the Goonies and you called and spent time with me in conversation. A lot of times, it’s so hard to dissect my day down to ONE single best thing, because today I have THREE people who are my world now. It’s as though, you’ve been the piece of the puzzle we’ve been missing.



I’m not the only that thinks this way, when the home line rings and your name appears, we all jump a little bit here at our home. We know that you care and that you are reaching out to show us, by a
simple act of calling. I’m not sure people understand that simple act and what it means to each of us. Funny thing is, since you’ve came into my life, I’ve picked up the phone more and more and less texting and messaging. You’re already having an impact on my life and not one bit of it is negative.



At night I read, Fifty Shades, and for a while it was soothing for my soul. Though, now, it seems it’s becoming more and more difficult to read, only because to go to sleep without you beside me or holding me is definitely not something I’m enjoying. Every time I lay down, my mind reminisces to you holding me and how profoundly comfortable it is to be in your arms. I grab my teddy bear to soothe me and it’s not enough anymore… it takes me some time to fall asleep now, for I need to ask the universe for help for sleep to come over me and calm my mind, knowing full well I’ll be in your arms soon.




Though I do have to say, you’ve helped me learn how to calm down my mind and begin writing and reading all over again. I’ve not endured on such activities in years and it wasn’t until you came around that I was willing to do so. If there’s anything I’d like to have you hear is how much of a exceptional man you are and your soul is pure with an amazing desire to do good in this world and I’ll be forever grateful that you showed up in my life,  Mr. B. 




Here’s to 4 days and a wake up and we are able to hold each other again. 

















#grateful #fallinginlovewithyou #romance #missingyou #Colorado #roadtrip #events #youaremyeverything #boyfriend #MINE 






Friday, October 10, 2014

The First Trip Together in Sunny Florida

Long distance relationships are difficult. NO doubt about it, yet, I believe that there’s a reason for them. For me it helps me to get to know the other person as well as learn what it is what we both want out of life, especially where I am in my life today…..Plus, when we are able to see each other, it makes all those moments in between worth it.



The magic that occurred while in Florida with Mr. B, was completely electric. It was something that made an experience extremely memorable. It created a bond between a dream and reality that I didn’t realize was possible.

I didn’t realize that one could have something from a significant other and create a loving, kind, thoughtful and strong relationship all the while working on each other’s dreams. I didn’t realize that there was actually someone out there that would support me in all that I do and believe. I didn’t realize that there were actually men out there that would put their woman first and welcome creating something magical all the while being pleased themselves by allowing it all to occur. So much I didn’t realize…. And more than likely don’t, there’s so much to learn.

Here’s a brief summary of our short visit to Florida and the Fit and Fabulous Contest that I was honored and privileged to judge at:

When arriving in Florida, I was to meet Mr. B in the same terminal to pick up the rental. He immediately requested that we upgrade and I shared with him that the simple zoom zoom car that I’d rented would do just fine. He was not happy with this, as I could plainly see, yet I didn’t want to spend more money than needed. To his benefit, there were issues with my rental process and so he got his way. A red, convertible Mustang it was. I gave up, since it was his choice and he was happy with what he was about to drive away in.

Let’s just say that I’m not going to argue with him on the choice of vehicle again, for it was a great time, while we had the vehicle….not only was it a fun time, adventurous and a new experience to do things with the top down, the best part was seeing how happy he was while he drove it around Florida.

We checked into our hotel, after a short adventure in the convertible and found our sanctuary. For it was the next morning that we needed to get up and see Boca Raton. As the event was that evening and we needed to make sure that we were around in time to prepare. 

He took me to the beach that was near and we didn’t have much time, but the time that we did have, we spent hand in hand. Which is something that I’ve missed dearly over the past decade. To be able to have him next to me, hand in hand, walking along the beach experiencing different sights and experiences is what made the entire time exceptional!! We also took a short drive down A1A ( a highway along the coast of Florida ) and pulled into an empty lot that would sell for around $750K, shared a few dreams and what we would do and then headed back to get ready.



As we prepared for the evening, there were some thoughts that I had about how nice it is to get ready with ‘him’ in the next room. Knowing that we were preparing to go somewhere completely new to the both of us, all the while that we were doing it together. Knowing that no matter what we both were working on ourselves in different views, only to bring it all together at one place in the long run. Knowing that I wasn’t alone that evening and that by having ‘him’ next to me, made it priceless. A dream come true. 

We arrived at the venue, a little bit earlier then what we needed too, so we made ourselves at home and he asked me if I needed anything. He went off and grabbed me some coffee and was back with his perfect smile, beautiful eyes and a warm coffee. He didn’t leave my side, other than to check in on his daughter and to tend to whatever it was that I needed. It was something from out of a dream, really. The contest was amazing!!! There were so many fabulous women that attended and the judges were so AWESOME!! I’d not met anyone in person, prior to this, for these were all the people that I’ve followed for years on my social media and they were that much better in person! It was as though we belonged there, they made it feel so comfortable and it was as though we’d been friends for years!!
(I’ll write another blog of this entire evening, for this was an EPIC adventure and event that all need to hear about)



After the contest we went out with my long lost social media buddy, Eli and his new wife, Amy. We had so many laughs, it was the topping to a great day!! Then he took me back to the hotel, where we were able to chill and relax, for we needed to get some rest as we were headed to Miami in the morning and then we had prior engagements with those from the contest later that night.

Saturday we went down the coast and stopped to see the end of the States, the best we could with the time and resources we had. He really wanted to Jet Ski on the ocean as well, so he insisted on renting one. Off we went to the ocean, together, on a two man Jet Ski. He shared with me one of the highlights of the trip were watching/listening to me, from when I was riding to when I was driving. Of course, I’m a control freak, so it was a lot different when I was in one position to the next. The ride on the ski was pretty neat, an adrenaline rush for sure!! Also, a test of trust… it’s a good thing that when I wanted to drive, he jumped into the ocean, verses me, HA.





We weren’t able to spend much of our time in Miami, for we had to get back for our prior engagements, so we headed back on the interstate. This is where my control issues really came to surface – for I’m not a ‘rider’ when in vehicles and it’s something I really need to work on. He adores to drive and I’m always so damn 
picky about his driving, verses allowing him to drive. Not sure how he puts up with me, but on the other hand, he’s not dumped me yet. There were so many cars to ooohhh and aww at, he was in heaven, especially when that Lamborghini flew by us. Either way, we made it back safely and then we were off for another adventure. A body building competition was in front of our evening and Mr. B. had never been to one, so it was something new for him. Following this event, we were all going out to eat and enjoy our last evening in Boca Raton.

It was a beautiful visit in Florida, yet the best part of it was that he was with me. I do wish that we’d not had to rush through so many things while we were there, yet it was absolutely amazing to have him by my side to experience it all.

Then came the time travel back home and it was almost as though the ‘vaca’ wasn’t ending for he was flying back with me! This was something else that I’ve yearned for over the years, someone to travel with. He was going to travel back with me and surprise his entire family that resides in the same state as I do. Then to top it off, he and his daughter were going to end up at our place to surprise my children with their arrival. 


It was a bit of work to set everything up but it was all worth it, the faces on the children and the feelings of having an actual ‘family’ setting again, made everything that I’d ever questioned, disappear. It was extremely comfortable and I happened to loved every moment!!! There were no nerves, it was like we were all 'home'. Strange, but true. 


I’m not entirely sure if it was the entire time we spent together, in completely foreign spaces together, learning how to get ready together, how to handle new situations together, combining our families or just spending time with him, it all made me realize that this man that found me isn’t a joke. Nor is he a ‘dream’ and that he’s a complete human being that had yet to be found by the right woman.

Now the Question is:

Am I that ‘right’ woman ? 

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Falling in love doesn't happen every day

The past 7 years I’ve yearned for someone to want to hold my hand as much as I wanted to hold his. I’ve yearned for someone to want to step out into adventures, with me by their side, as much as I wanted them there. I’ve yearned to walk up and down beaches, go on long walks together, watch sunsets and sunrises together, take long drives together, experience new places and people together. I’ve yearned for someone to want to be there when I woke up as much as wanting me there when they woke up. I’ve yearned for someone to want to hold me as much as I wanted to hold them. I’ve yearned for someone…….

When you appeared in my life I didn’t realize how much you would mean to me in such a short amount of time. I didn’t realize that you were going to appear out of nowhere and mean so much to me, so intensely, so quickly. I didn’t realize that it would feel so good to know that you were there for me, even being over 900 miles away. I didn’t realize that the relationship that we were going to create would calm so many doubts, fears and insecurities within me. I didn’t realize that I would be less interested in the social world and more interested in your communication, wants and desires. I didn’t realize you would mean the world to me in such a short amount of time.

We walked the beaches hand in hand, we took long walks, we took long drives, we experienced new adventures, we met new people, and we went to new places together…. Do you even realize how much of a dream come true you are?? 

We laid there, your arms around me, as you fell asleep and I listened to your breath as your muscles fell asleep and your breathing changed and all that mattered in those moments were you and I. When we woke up, we both knew we wanted the same things for the day and yet we both wanted the world to stop so that we could spend the morning in bed together.

When I think of what we’ve experienced together, the moments I remember most are your smile, your laughter and the feelings I felt as you had your arms around me. The times that we woke up together and the times we fell asleep together. The times that you looked at me with your inviting smile and allowing me to melt in your eyes, are the times that make everything else wash away. You make everything in my world bearable. You’ve created a ‘home’ that I’m able to go that no one has been able to make for me, not one that I’m able to ‘walk’ into with my entire being, yet my soul is able to crawl into and know that no matter what happens from here and out, I’m going to be OK because you’re there….You’re there to help me through no matter what it is that I have to deal with and that I’m going to be OK because you’re going to walk beside me through no matter what issue it is that I need to handle.

 You’re HOME to me Mr. B.

What we have is extremely comforting to me and I’m absolutely positive that I’m falling in love with you and everything you are and all that you are about. You are the man that I’ve waited for and the man I’ve dreamed of. You’re the father that I always wanted to appear in my life to his children. You’re the hero that I always looked for as a little girl. You’re the gentleman that I always wished would appear at my doorstep. You’re the friend that I always looked for in a man. You’re the male figure that keeps a clean house inside and out and that shows what a real man is.

To be able to have you next to me is beyond a dream, it’s a complete fairytale come true.

As I looked over at you this past weekend, on our trip, it was magical to see the man that was sitting next to me. It wasn’t only the fact that you are extremely handsome, a selfless man, a gentleman, a wonderful father, a man that is mature beyond is years, it was that you were there to be with me and that every ounce of wisdom and knowledge that was held in your face was becoming more and more known to myself as someone that I wanted to spend more time with. As I looked over at you, I smiled inside as my heart warmed, knowing that everything about you, I trusted with my entire heart and that who I was looking at was a gift from the gods above. I knew that who I was looking at was someone I only hope will stay by my side forever.

You are not afraid to confront me. You are not afraid to put me in my place and call me on my stuff. You listen to me when I tell you how I feel about something you are doing and I don’t agree. You look for solutions in the areas that concern me and look for ways that I can do things differently as well. You make suggestions to help with situations. You ask for help. You are humble.

As you laid your head on my lap, I didn’t want you to move. I wanted you stay there and to continue to do it over and over and over. As you watched over me at the event and asked how you could help, I never realized what it would be like to have someone there for me to help me, it felt so GREAT to have that support. As we sat with the others, chatting and experiencing new relationships with others together, it was GREAT to have someone to share the joys, smiles and to experience with someone the BEST times known to me. All of these times, are what I’ve yearned for….. my entire life.


You create adventure, laughter, comfort and joy all into such small amounts of time and knowing that each time we are together, it becomes stronger, and my heart yearns for more of all of it with you. To know that everything that has happened up until this moment, to bring us here, has been worth every ounce of pain, sorrow and tear, for without all of those, you’d never have appeared in my life.

There were so many different things that we experienced together the past week, yet the best part of it all was having you there. The rest really didn’t matter, since it was with you. I adored the moments we were able to experience together and the adventures were absolutely unforgettable, yet, none of it would have been a quarter of a memory without you.



If this is the rest of my life, I’ll take it.