Second off, I know now what they mean by training -- and not just throwing in long distances races together. The body has now shown me it's limits, for now !! BAM !! We are going to show it that it can be stronger though and push it farther - while being SMARTER and STRONGER!! I am injured.
Third off, College begins for me in a few weeks -- here comes change.
Fourth off, I know how humiliating injuries are to us athletes -- ugh -- I dropped out of Ragnar an boy that was a blow to receive that email indicating that I was off of the team.
Fifth, My little brother will accomplish another dream of his - getting married. I'd try to talk him out of it, but I remember those wonderful moments and, besides, I like his fiance. So, we will go with it.
I was told on Monday by a sports med doc that I may have a tear in my labrum. ( Left Hip ) He also said that I will more or likely be up against surgery and be out for at least 6 to 8 weeks after that. We set up an MRI for the following week, with the follow up visit the week following -- are you adding these weeks up, because I sure as hell am. We are now looking to around 3 months with rehabilitation in there. So, whats a good athlete to do ??? PLAN -- make a plan of attack !!
Next week, I join the local YMCA and start swimming, literally!! I have talked to my trainer about a workout plan at home an will follow that as well as getting to the gym to swim 2 to 3 x's per week. This is going to be a huge change for this lady, as I usually do ALL my workouts at home. YET, I love to run and workout and it's become a part of who I am now. So, start living or get busy dieing is a favorite saying of mine and I'll be damned that I come this far in my life to give up!!
It's not about others anymore. It was when this all started -- I started to stay strong, to be a good person for my children. To take out all the emotions and work on the outsides while the insides didn't know which way to turn. They hurt with pain that I never knew before and all I could do was get into something that would provide strength for the most important people in my life and that was and still is my two beautiful children. Through that searching I found a new way of life an something that worked for me. As the pain subsided, I found joy in a new passion - running/exercise. I not only found a new passion, I found a place that I fit in and I found a community that surrounded me with positivity, love, tolerance, teachings, knowledge, wisdom, strength, courage and soo much more !! The bonds in this community are unreal!! I am soo unconditionally loved, its absolutely amazing!! They are there for me during the successes AND the failures. They pick me up when I am down, literally ( whether it's my mood OR laying on the ground after a workout ) !! Now this is about finding me, all over again, in another realm that I have not yet ventured.
Learning to do different things, things that you are uncomfortable doing, things that you know you are not familiar with, places you need to go that are foreign, new things/places/people are always scarey. Yet, if anyone knows that good comes from bad things, it's me!! By golly, I've had the rug pulled out from under me OODLES of times in my life and it ALWAYS, yep, ALWAYS turns out to be a GREAT THING!! When I allow it to work and do the footwork and rely on my faith.
I am not alone, I haven't been in years and that feels amazing.
It's time for a new adventure until I can put those sneakers back on. It's time for a change -- slide down another side of rainbow and see what prevails. Man, change SUCKS and is sooo hard!! Yet, from it, we grow and become such better people, stronger and more confident !!
Confidence ROARS -- here we go......Onward. Upward. Stay ON. Keep ON.
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