How lucky I am to have had something so wonderful that it's hard to say Goodbye ( A closure letter )

I’d like to tell you that I’m writing to you about some amazing adventure or something magical, yet instead I’m going to write to you about the angel that stepped into my life, not too long ago, that I’ve written of multiple times and hope that he is able to read this in its entirety. For it’s not that this a closure, but more of an opening to another chapter that’s awaiting to be written for the two of us as we move forward in life.

My soul earned for someone to lay next to me, not because of what they seen in my physique, but because they wanted to be next to me to show  me that love still existed in all ways that I had imagined in my dreams since I was a little girl. My body ached for someone to hold me, with all the passion in the world and to feel them against me with every inch of their soul wanting more of me. My inner self longed for someone to make me laugh, from pure enjoyment and being silly together. My spirit wanted to be alive, with someone wanting the exact same thing at the exact same moment. For me, wanting someone to want me, was more powerful than any intimate action in this world and Mr. B was able to prove to me that it’s possible. Every piece of it. It’s all possible. He gave me that glimpse of hope, which I only thought was in a book or a movie. He gave to me what no one else has been able to give to me and for that I’ll be eternally grateful.

The romance that had been created by us has come to an end, for it seems as though that chapter is now over and it’s time to move onto the next one. It seems as though the page has turned and the seasons are different now, yet it doesn’t mean that hope does not exist. It does not mean that the impossible is not possible, for that would be a lie. The impossible is still possible, just not in this moment of our lives. There are many souls out there that create magic when they meet and I was able to experience this wonderful feeling with Mr. B and even though that relationship had to come to close, it leaves with me a deep understanding of something I’d only ever imagined.

As I move through life, there’s so many lessons that I’ve learned and one of the main ones is, that to each person, we all have a different path to live. It’s not one that is meant to hurt others, it’s meant for us to be true to ourselves and take care of the most important person, which is ourselves. At the moment, when we take care of ourselves, others don’t want to accept the fact that we need to do so,  yet in time, all wounds heal and we all grow from each experience that is brought into our lives. We are all able to learn from each other, so many lessons, and by stepping out of one’s self and into acceptance, live seems to flow much easier. Life seems to throw things in front of us that derail us for a while, yet if we face them with simple steps such as acceptance, love and patience, we all heal and learn. We even become better people, for it’s in those steps we learn our true strength. The strength that is buried so deep within some of us, yet when it is found and applied to life, we are able to achieve the impossible.

There’s no negative feelings that this relationship has ended, the exact opposite is there for me today. For without the past time I’ve spent with this wonderful man, I learned more of what I want in life and what I’m looking for in a partner. I’ve learned what I’m not able to accept as well as what I’m able to apply to my life or even what I will go through for the ultimate success in a relationship. I’ve learned a lot already and I’m still healing. Through the pain is where the growth and lessons will continue to evolve and for that, I’ll be eternally grateful.

There’s good men out there for us women who are broken. I’m confident of it. Though they will appear when we least expect it and we need to continue to stay open minded and willing to accept the entire time spent with them while they are in our lives, for tomorrow is never guaranteed and yesterday has passed.

Mr. B if you are reading this – know you will always hold a special place in this lady’s heart and you will always be known for the phenomenal experiences we had, the moments you touched my heart and the flowers that blossomed in my soul while you were in my life. Please, always stay safe, give many hugs, always hold doors for strangers and never lose your spontaneity. Most of all à THANK YOU!!